SAY GOODBYE

Acceptance is the hardest thing yet, it brings the easiest result.

I had a friend who I esteemed so much. I was ready to be there for her when she needed me and even when she didn’t.

She never calls, she never checks up on me except when she needs someone to unburden herself to.

In a way, I was a therapist without the qualifications. I think friendship was my certificate or so I thought.

It took one major event for me to realize what I truly meant to her. It was hard to swallow.

We went our separate ways for a while. I was the one hurting, yet, I reached out again. Thinking maybe, she’d learnt to appreciate me more. Maybe, she missed me and will treat me better now.

Actually, that hasn’t happened and probably never will. It is hard to accept that sometimes you place people on a pedestal they’d never place you; but that’s okay.

Sometimes you think someone is your friend just as you are theirs but you later find out it is only in your head. To you they are your friend but to them you are a dispensible body who they can afford to spend time with when they are less busy.

Yes, it is true people have various ideas of love and friendship and they are allowed to determine how special you are to them. Yeah, but it hurts when you are ready to hang the moon for them and they won’t be bothered to even pick a phone to check on you.

I once read that “takers have no boundaries”. So learn to say goodbye.

It is okay to outgrow frinedships. It is okay to no longer be available to people that do not serve you. It is okay to be unwilling to accept the barest minimum from a person just because you are strong enough to love for two.

It is okay to stop giving to people who would keep taking it for granted. It is okay to give up on a love that is draining you.

Is it going to be easy? No, but it’d definitely be worth it. You deserve love and friendship that seeks your welfare too. A love and friendship that sees you, wants to support you and is willing to stand by you.

Accepting that some people are not your friend is one of the first step to go. Just because you consider them a friend doesn’t mean they consider you as a friend.

Let that sink in. It is okay to move on D.

You will find better ahead.

If not, be your own friend.

Ciao.