TRYING

Hey there,

I know life gets tedious and it is almost hard to show up each day with the same level of energy especially when we have had to deal with defeat, disappointments, trauma, boredom, or all the other dramas associated with living.

Do you ever get this nostalgic rush of wellness within you that all things will work out perfectly even when you don’t know how that’d come to be just by remembering a time when you had a great turn of event after being in a dilemma for quite a while?

Follow me, I am building up to something here…

I know we all have this picture perfect definition of what a happy and successful life should capture, probably a reality modeled after societal expectations, personal ambitions, or even fantasy, but we don’t always live up to these ideals. It is said that we are constantly in between two lives, the one we want and the one we think others expects us to have.

Often, we out grow some of our dreams, outlive the need for specific goals, sometimes feel overwhelmed by our ambitions, get weary, crave quiet simplicity, whatever the reason, we just don’t live up to this picture.

What if it is possible to change our lives from moment to moment? what if daily reinvention of the mundane became common place? what if familiarity is traded for unusual?

Is it possible to recapture the dream board, reroute and just go in pursuit of that picture?

The core of my summation is remember to capture your essence everyday, remember to stay close to the picture of the self you want to invent. No matter how far away you are from that picture, just strive to get close with the knowledge that who you are and who you want to be are not so far apart.

It won’t matter if you never match the ideal, the joy is in the TRYING

I think that is all we all strive to do anyways, I don’t think this is a new insight or earth shattering discovery. We already know this but why don’t we live it?

It is the simple eccentric things we enjoy. Traveling, writing, painting, singing, dancing in the rain, laughing out loud (the actual thing not emoticon), listening to French songs even when the language is foreign to you , wine tasting, sleeping under the stars with the skies as cover, seeing every inch of the world there is to see, experiencing new ways of living.

The list is endless but I know you can readily pull out the eccentric things you want to try out but very few of us actually touch this type of living where we stay true to our core, our idiosyncracies, we get carried away with what we feel should matter than what actually matters.

we are cocooned by our fear of desirability and validation and I am not talking about the big things… simple things like being praise aficionados, people pleasing, stifling image fitting, misguided and misplaced loyalty, overestimation of our self-importance.

Lately, I have been forced to ask myself, ” Is this what adulthood is about? Working to pay bills and repeating it every day with no foreseeable end? Endless nurturing of ambition and climbing one goal to the other, swinging from dream to dream to chase a high that never stays high?

Honestly, just narrating it this way encapsulates the trifling effect of vanity. How unimportant and ephemeral the string of ambition is. There must be more to life than existing and surviving or fulfilling fool-hardy expectations.

What makes for concrete joy or ecstasy? How many people can really boast of living in fulfillment? How can we even live in search of fulfilment if we don’t even understand the existential nature of being?

I am not saying that dreams or ambitions don’t change the world nor am I trying to be nihilistic. It is the in between, finding and living dreams that impact us first before the world we seek to change, ambition that doesn’t deprive us of rest and peaceful existence, the joy of experiencing happiness from friends and family. The wonderful colours of loving and being loved almost in equal measures.

I think the answer is summed up in these words “Do not conform to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind”

Our mind is the key to unlocking the drudgery. The strive to manoeuvre the cacophony by chasing transformation instead of conformity.

That really is trying…

Xoxo,

Dcconnoisseur.