You know what? when you are truly happy, you’d know. Nothing else will matter. Not who is watching you laugh loudly or who’d be disturbed by your excitement.
It won’t matter if you perform all the cliche acts and do the corniest things ever. It won’t matter if people think you are stupid or making a mistake.
At this point, I know you can already tell where this post is heading? Yeah, I am talking about finding happiness with someone. Meeting a person who compliments you and makes you feel on top of the world.
As much as I believe that one should first be happy, I also know that there is this matchless energy that one basks in when you find a person you are happy for and happy with. The gratitude that comes with having someone you can laugh with. Someone who’d always put you first doesn’t mind being embarrassed by you, never takes your vulnerability for granted, and values what you share. Omo, that’s a blessing that can’t be explained.
Do people make mistakes? Yes. Is anyone perfect? No. Even soulmates quarrel. I am just saying when you find someone willing to take a chance on you, walk through fire for you and just generally has your back, a person you can trust completely, a person you can forgive easily, a person who shares your values and values them too, a person who feels responsible to protect your heart because it is inestimable. A true friend, a partner, You’d know. You may not appreciate them but you’d know. The energy is ethereal.
Being humans, we find a way to ruin this small piece of heaven even when we find it either because we are conditioned to believe that nothing should be so good all the time, to believe that we cannot be happy all the time, to doubt so much even the joy we feel, or to hide it. After all, we don’t want to look too in love, we think showing happiness is what other people would be jealous of and will take pleasure in ruining or by ourselves we start to look for ways to disqualify feeling such bliss in a world so chaotic that hurt is the password.
From the bottom of my heart, I enjoin you to please be the fool, enjoy the euphoria that comes because you are excited about having someone to share life with, celebrate it every day like it is the one thing you are living for, proclaim it on the rooftop, be wild with insanity. Let people ask if you are the only one who has ever been happy, shamelessly chase joy, bliss, love, and kindness, chase integrity, gratitude, honesty, trust, appreciate your life. Appreciate the love you find, mourn the love you lost, learn from your mistakes, grow, fight for second chances, right your wrongs, don’t just expect someone to accept your flaws and all even though that’d be very great, strive to be a person who is easy to love. Make room for love in your life, put it at the center. Be obsessed about professing how you feel.
Yes, you only live once and there’s no award for best-kept feelings. Indulge yourself when you are happy, splurge on memories, hold nothing back, pour it all out. I wish I could say when you do this you are sure to never get hurt, sadly, that will be a lie. You may get terribly hurt, you may find someone who will see all these and throw it all out like thrash, in the end though, there’d be no regret on your part.
The thing is, you are alone in this body, your memories are yours to keep, your emotions are yours to own, even when someone else evokes them, they can never share what you feel, they may at best perceive you are at peace, they may vibe with the euphoria, but you’d be the one drunk in love, tipsy with joy.
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