CREATING BOUNDARIES

I am too scared to try

Why is that cowardice?

Why is it not bravery to choose familiar and comfortable?

Must I walk the unknown?

I am sorry I don’t want to ask questions like is God real?

Is God an endorser of evil?

I don’t want to know if I may or may not be interested in women

What if I don’t want to do popular things and follow the trend?

What if I need boundaries to maintain sanity?

What if I don’t want to test my limits?

I don’t judge your wildness, why judge my conservatism?

I truly have struggles but I don’t want complications…

What does that make me?

I don’t know

You have no idea either

We all just follow clues

Don’t stand on your high horse dishing sage advice on living your best life when you are also on trial.

Your bravery doesn’t fool me

We all have the fire underneath our belly

We all run from something towards something else.

Don’t smirk at me

Let each of our adventures carry us to our nirvana

I don’t want your heaven

Sometimes, know that I am content in my hell

Your heaven might just be worse than death to me and death may just be your heaven

There is no moral lesson here

I am a wanderer like you

But one who likes to hold on to home

Home is where my mind can echo the silence and not screech.

Please let me lock my gate

I don’t want to be brave

I will pull back my kite

Choose the location I will spread my wings carefully

Let me soar on my calculations

Even if life will knock the wind out of me so be it

Go on be brave

Leave me in my brick and mortar space fence

I am home.