ENNUI

Have you ever woken up any day just feeling like you shouldn’t be here or even questioning why you are?

If not you, someone else… have you ever met someone who would rather just die than live to fight and struggle for happiness or thriving?

Have you ever been without the will to beat the odds, or face the unknown? Have you been trapped in darkness so long that light feels like too much stress?

Have you been too scared to move on because all you have come to understand is pain? Or have you had to give up want you want because you are too scared it may come crumbling down?

Have you lived vicariously through the fears of others as an excuse not to explore your life? Have you been too scared to make mistakes because perfection is the only way to live life for you?

Have you ever failed at something you thought was a no-brainer, or have something you were so sure would work change out of your hands?

Have you ever felt so out of control, out of touch with your life that if you could, you’d submit it to someone else to live it?

Have you ever had faith dragged out of you that all you embrace is fate? Have you ever been betrayed by your expectations and beguiled by your wants? Have your desires derailed you?

Have you… have you just want to let it all go?

Well, if you have, you are not alone we are all engulfed by the meaninglessness of life. It hits when someone close dies, when disaster happens and when the difference between healthy and unhealthy was merely a day, a few weeks, months, or years.

We live with burdens… embodiments of pain that we are. Disabled, unable, capable and unwilling, willing yet inopportune.

We all carry chaos within; trying to quiet the storm with forgetfulness. We try to escape our souls but like shadows, they cling to little light.

Our objective is happiness but it is the very subject that brings us pain. How we go in search of it so diverse yet, so unifying

Does this article have a purpose? No. Take what you will from it. You are not alone.

There are so many masquerades around shivering with unmet desires and too closed up to the light but life goes on…