HOW DID YOU HEAR I LOVE YOU?

Anxious, patiently waiting for the other shoe to drop.

Trying to figure out what’s beneath the chemistry…

Not looking forward to commitment just in it for the grabs…

Trying to run out the emotional door. I have played and lived this scene many times over…

Terrified, because for the first time I truly want to stay and unpack my baggage(s)…

You know, before now, I usually move in with them, never unpack and just stay very close to the exit ready to jet out at any time.

The first day of staying didn’t go terribly as I had imagined. In fact, it was effortless. There was spark, fireworks, words and warmth.

The thing is, I didn’t even want it to go this way. I wanted to find a reason to walk away and I mean for good; back to my comfort zone.

He didn’t let me.

We were going on our first date…

It wasn’t the typical first date. We were in a group. I had a friend, he had a friend. We were all trying to be friendly…

It was by a lake. Of course, I didn’t get in. I just held my breathe praying he’d be fine as I watched him kayaking…

No, the day did not proceed as planned. Whatever the plan was 🙄. Nothing romantic. Almost too casual.

Crammed up in a room not spacious enough for four people. Trying to set up a movie with almost crappy internet…

He’s had booz but not enough to make him tipsy I think?

I eventually sat on his lap or was I lying on top of him?

I have been noticing him stare at me through the date but now he was silent and making it obvious that he was staring.

Before I could ask what was up. He whispered under his breathe. ‘I LOVE YOU’.

I stilled…

I blamed the booze.

I argued with the timing

We were not alone.

I said nothing back

We went home

I asked him again, do you remember what you said

He repeated the words.

I said why?

You are under the influence

He ignored my sedatory comment and said: “in a room full of people, you were all I could focus on. It was like just two of us existed. I couldn’t take my eyes of you. If you know me, you know I never focus on what I don’t like.’

I figured…

I have found me a beau.

Okay, maybe I embellished the story a little. Go tell your story😋